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Passover Every Year. And We're Still There.

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Every date on the Jewish calendar helps us with the most important creative work of this life – correcting and refining our human qualities. Passover is dedicated to one of the most fundamental and eternally debated concepts – freedom. What is it, exactly? Freedom from what, and for what purpose? Is it even possible to be truly free? Answering all these questions is not the goal of this short piece, especially since traditional sources and their commentaries have much to say on the matter. But there is something here worth paying attention to.

If you tell me that freedom isn't important to you, I won't believe you. Human beings are wired to value independence. Many of us chose to move to a "free country" – the USA (how free it actually is, that's a separate conversation) – for exactly this reason. After all, the Creator gave us this right: to choose. And yet there's a saying: you can take a person out of the Soviet Union – forgive me, out of Egypt – but you can't take Egypt out of the person. What do I mean by that?

We feel freedom the way we feel air. When it's gone, we suffocate. But here's what's strange: even after breaking free from external circumstances – a country, a relationship, a situation – we often find ourselves in the very same place. Inside. Because Egypt is not a geography. It's a way of being.

Rabbi Eliezer Reichman reasons as follows: a person cannot truly be free, because he always serves someone or something. If not the Creator, then his own destructive habits, becoming their slave and hostage. And a slave to habits has no real choice.

My teacher, Rabbi Efim Svirsky, in his books, describes three aspects – three levels of freedom – found in the Torah: chofesh, dror, and cherut. Chofesh is the freedom a slave receives upon being released. Dror is the kind of freedom the freed slave is practically driven toward by force. Cherut appears in connection with the tablets and the commandments. Drawing a parallel to the Exodus from Egypt, it's important to understand: when we free ourselves from what we want to leave behind, we don't always know where to go next. Think of such moments in your own life. And sometimes the Creator Himself pushes us out of our comfort zone – through a difficult situation, through pain – so that we rise to the challenge and find freedom on the other side. But we only become truly free when we understand why we needed all of this. Freedom is not "doing whatever I want" – it's understanding the right choice and moving toward your own purpose. And these three levels of freedom are just as relevant today as they were for ancient slaves – alive in each of us, at every step.

What drives your behavior – reason or emotion? When you're in a painful or dependent relationship, how often do you manage to act from logic? Or do emotions, habits, and old patterns take over? You might believe that resentment, silence, or a sharp response is your free choice. But people who are convinced they act purely from logic are often the least aware of their own emotional motives. True freedom is closer to this: the ability to look in the mirror at your own reactions, acknowledge the power of your emotions – and then use your reason to decide how to respond.

Think about how many times you've found yourself – or keep finding yourself – in the same situations, with different people, but following the same script. As if something keeps leading you back to the same mistakes, to help you finally understand what's off, and break free from a mistaken way of seeing life. Through pain, through bitter experience, through "I don't want this anymore." Everything that happens to us is a path toward growth and freedom. Everything we go through is, ultimately, for the better. And when resentment, anxiety, disappointment, guilt, shame, destructive desires, anger, fear, and other chains appear along the way – they are not there to trap us forever. They are there so we can recognize that negative pull, work through it, and grow toward real freedom and the understanding that the Creator wants to teach us how to be happy.

That is where true freedom leads – the kind that has room for our values, for the keeping of commandments, and for the unconditional, infinite love of the Creator.

May this Passover bring each of us one step closer – out of the narrowness of our own "Egypt" and toward genuine freedom.

Happy holiday, dear friends!

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